Everything I know

is white noise
blurring inhibited boundaries
permeated by a choice
numb skin under my feet
blend with paper, with ink
losing lines, defaulting forms
banter cannot clothe me anymore

moving from light into dark
and i must look away just to see
with ones and zeros
learned last night in a dream
my insides now speak to me
but my eyes were closed
and the voice in my head
can't see enough, enough to be

no stories left to tell
standing on the edge of my map
compass ceaselessly spinning
before me only black
anger in my jaw, fear lumped in my throat
there is no going back.

You lured me out on a limb

with soft pleas for openness
only to hang me from it
my own feeling
twisted in on itself
to make the noose.

then you whipped me
with your promise
not to care,
and spat at me
shards of my broken promise
not to love.

my body twitched and swayed
in the hot lies
of friendship
while you drank in my sex.

you cut me loose
and then crawled into my bed
stroking my wounds with salty fingers.

you assault me, then insult me, then pull me close.