no more sitemeter

this is why i didnt tell anyone about my blog
or at least not where to find it
because when i know whos reading it
it effects my writing.

i liked it better when my audience was
unknown.

now when i sit here and begin to think about this entry
i think
"is there anything i want to say to her?
i cant say that because he will read it.
how can i get her to read that?"

and so i havent written.

so fuck this
im going to stop acting like i dont care
i care
too much
thats the problem
i care too much.
just in general, about everything, all the time.
i think i just care more.

so, in the name of self preservation,
im going to stop checking to see whos seen my blog
how long they stayed
and where they went when they left...

because i care too much,
im done.