At this point in my life...
(excuse my extensive quoting in this entry)
"At this point in my life i've done so many things wrong i don't know if I can do right If you put your trust in me I hope I won't let you down. If you give me a chance I'll try. You see it's a hard road the rad i've been travelling on. And if i take your hand I might lead you down the path to ruin. i've had a hrad life. i'm just saying so you'll understand that right now right now i'm doing the best I can at this point in my life. At this point in my life although I've mostly walked in the shadows i'm still searshing for the light. Won't you put your faith in me. We both that's waht matters. if you give me a chance i'll try. You see i've been climbing stairs but mostly stumbling down. I've been reaching high but always losing ground. You see i've conquered hills but still have mountains to climb. And right now right now I'm doing the best I can at this point in my life. Before we take a step Before we walk down that path before i make any promises Before you have regrets Before we talk commitment let me tell you of my past All i've seen and all I've done The things I'd like to forget At this point in my life at this point in my life I'd like to live as if only love mattered as if redemption was in sight As if the search to live honestly was all that anyone needs No matter if you find it You see when I've touched the sky the earth's gravity pulled me down But now I've reconciled that is this world birds and angels get the wongs to fly If you can believe in this heart of mine If you can give it a try Then I'll reach inside and fine and give you All teh sweetness that I have At this point in my life At thispoint in my life." (Tracy Chapman 1992)
This is my anthem,
I told my roommate yesterday,
and she said that it was sad,
both the song and presumably that I would want it as my anthem.
but i did not find it so sad,
more comforting.
because she is seeing where she really is, right now.
and accepting it, as is.
not with any delusion about how it came to be or what the future holds,
and without coming down on herself for not being more.
this is who i am,
right now.
can you take it?
how could that be sad?
what has she lost in accepting that she is fallible?
no matter how many delusions one may have about their own meaning,
in the end you are nothing more
than what you are
right now.
"At this point in my life i've done so many things wrong i don't know if I can do right If you put your trust in me I hope I won't let you down. If you give me a chance I'll try. You see it's a hard road the rad i've been travelling on. And if i take your hand I might lead you down the path to ruin. i've had a hrad life. i'm just saying so you'll understand that right now right now i'm doing the best I can at this point in my life. At this point in my life although I've mostly walked in the shadows i'm still searshing for the light. Won't you put your faith in me. We both that's waht matters. if you give me a chance i'll try. You see i've been climbing stairs but mostly stumbling down. I've been reaching high but always losing ground. You see i've conquered hills but still have mountains to climb. And right now right now I'm doing the best I can at this point in my life. Before we take a step Before we walk down that path before i make any promises Before you have regrets Before we talk commitment let me tell you of my past All i've seen and all I've done The things I'd like to forget At this point in my life at this point in my life I'd like to live as if only love mattered as if redemption was in sight As if the search to live honestly was all that anyone needs No matter if you find it You see when I've touched the sky the earth's gravity pulled me down But now I've reconciled that is this world birds and angels get the wongs to fly If you can believe in this heart of mine If you can give it a try Then I'll reach inside and fine and give you All teh sweetness that I have At this point in my life At thispoint in my life." (Tracy Chapman 1992)
This is my anthem,
I told my roommate yesterday,
and she said that it was sad,
both the song and presumably that I would want it as my anthem.
but i did not find it so sad,
more comforting.
because she is seeing where she really is, right now.
and accepting it, as is.
not with any delusion about how it came to be or what the future holds,
and without coming down on herself for not being more.
this is who i am,
right now.
can you take it?
how could that be sad?
what has she lost in accepting that she is fallible?
no matter how many delusions one may have about their own meaning,
in the end you are nothing more
than what you are
right now.
posted by Solador at 6:45 PM
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