sink or swim.

the past few days have been
a whirlwind.
a whirlwind over the pacific.
if that exists.
i said to my nearest and dearest just a couple of weeks ago that
major change was aloft
for me.
they hate when i say shit like that
all prophetic and shit
tough to deal with im sure.
all the same i said it.
and so.

my therapist says its what happens when a
near critical mass
occurs
and all that honesty shit
that ive been working at,
in one area of my life or another,
or all,
starts to. . .
reap.

my nearest said tonight
to warn me
against honesty
she said they dont always understand it.
i knew that, but i dont all the way know it,
not like i will.

foreshadowing.

the other night with my dearest
she warned me too
not as much with what she said
as what she looked at me with
i know that look
thats the,
"i know you believe what you just said, but i know its not true, and wont tell you"
and what had i said to deserve that?
-"she's the one that stands to get hurt here."

and so honesty
momentous honesty
sink or swim.